Holy Tears

Each footstep reverberated in the empty rooms... Out-pounding the furious beat of his heart... He then sat upon a chair that still held the scent of her; instantly feeling warmed to the core and embraced by all that was her...

He looked to the CD in his hand, bemused and a little confused as to why this had been left for him... She'd always known that new-fangled gadgets had left him with a headache... and yet she had chosen to leave this for him...

With a heavy sigh, he stood, hearing the creak of the oak panelled arms of the chair groan under his weight; as they always did; and made his way to their, well, not their so much, more *her* stereo, switched it on and put the CD in to play...

He was expecting a love song of the most profound to start melodically explaining all that she had felt for him, but the moment the first lines caressed him in the tiny room, he knew that she was letting him now that she knew, and had always known, just what her death would be doing to him...

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"Wrapped inside the twisted world
I can't decide what is even real anymore
As though I ever knew..."
"Tangled in these silhouettes
Floating face down in a river of regrets
And thoughts of you..."
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He had to get out of the room... It was suffocating him...

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"Holy tears
They linger on
Only you my light
Forever gone..."
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He ran up the stairs, tripping on the last one, sprawling across the landing that had once pitter-pattered with her footsteps... He wanted to pound on it, to take away the memory of her moving softly towards him... And he did... Once... Then he stood, feeling the quiet haunting tune envelope him from below, and moved to the bedroom...

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"You believed she'd never leave
Rosy cheeked and oh so, young
And full of flame..."
"Here in this bed of emptiness
Button by button I come undone
And only twenty-one..."
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There, the first tear came, forced from eyes that had shed more than their fair share already... There, came the first moan of despair and a shudder of control, that diminished on a choked sob...

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"Holy tears
They linger on
Only you my life
Forever gone..."
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He looked to the window at the sun rising... But no more would she turn to him and bathe him in her own sunshine... No more would she comfort him, love him... Die for him...

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"Gone like the broken words at your feet
You're gone in the venom lips that kiss me, sweetly..."
"Gone, like a frightened bird, into the sky
Won't you take everything I ever had and leave me to die..."
"As I cry..."
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And he wept... Bone shaking sobs mingling with the tune that was tearing
him apart...
She knew...
She knew...

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"Holy tears
They linger on
Only you my love
Forever gone..."
"Only you my love
Forever gone..."

THE END



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